Back on Twitch

 Oh MAN!

It has been a while!

Okay, so here is what is going on over in My Musical world:

When I first started streaming on Twitch, I was SUPER excited and finally found a musical community that I could be a part of despite all of my struggles with health. I was doing my best to stream at least once a week and focused on learning new songs, writing new songs, improving upon my musical chops, increasing my repertoire, and finding ways to stream all things music. 

Then my health decided to put a wrench into it all, again. 

I mean, I've known for YEARS that trying to do ANYTHING once a week was too hard on my system physically. My body, my health, my illnesses are entirely unreliable. So a concrete schedule - especially as frequent as once a week - is obviously unachievable right now. My body just won't allow me to do that, which is fine. It's not that the music or the singing itself caused my body to crash, although I haven't ruled it out, but that my health status is so volatile that I really have barely any clue as to how I will be feeling on any particular day. So scheduling is a mess. 

Tonight I am doing my first Twitch stream since this latest flare-up, which I am still dealing with but have a better handle on. I am not committing to a specific once-a-week stream, I am not going to force my body to provide streaming content multiple times a week, and I am just going to sing what I love and try and slowly learn new songs. It isn't perfect, but it's what I can do. What my current goal is (which is quite watered-down from when I first started) is to stream once per month - if I can... whichever time or day that I can. Of course it won't get me that 'affiliate' status on Twitch, and an unreliable artist means unreliable audience members, but I would rather stream when I am feeling up to it and do WHAT I LOVE rather than force myself to adhere to a schedule that my body will eventually interrupt anyways. Not only that, but when I am in SUCH a big flare-up, even logging into Twitch and watching other streamers can be too much. I can't always focus, I can't always participate, and, frankly, when my health is preventing me from singing or practicing any kind of music, it can be emotionally difficult to watch other streamers. 

 It has been two and a half months since I have been able to REALLY sing, so I am thoroughly looking forward to streaming tonight. 

That is what is going on currently in My Musical Life! I still love every second of my musical life, I just wish I could do a whole lot more of it.